Well, the start of this blog. Lets start my talking about me. I would describe myself first of all as an old soul. Inside, I feel very old. Not old as in ready to die, but old as in having been here before, a little bit tired of the game, with a gentle sense of homor, not taking anything that seriously. One web site that has a description of the old soul is at www.michaelteachings.com, that's quite interesting.

I'm someone with lots of problems, all internal. But that's where I want to focus. I have a good job (at least one that pays well), attractive, own my own place, have had no problem getting (and keeping) girlfriends, am artistic, very emotional, very intelligent and know how to have fun. In fact, a lot of things come very easy to me. But that puts the focus inside.

I just got a new girlfriend within the last 2 weeks. Sex is very interesting for me. I don't find the purely physical aspects that interesting. I've had purely physical relationships and frankly they're quite boring. But sex - the passion - is about the blurring of boundaries, union, connection, creation. That part is fascinating. I'm odd (esp. for a guy) in that I always want to spent the time with the eyes open, conscious, connecting. Of course, it's frightening like that - because it's a way to be a little more vulnerable to the other person. Anyway, not to the point.

Aside from that, I guess I like to spent my time searching for what's common between everyone. Between cultures, between educations, indoctrinations, etc. I've stopped listening to news and tv because of all the complications it brings. We get so many opinions, but no one *knows*. Who do we value to lead us? I'm not talking politicians, which is so obvious, but what leads us in subtle ways. Our teachers, our journalists, even our actors. Our society - which is right now almost akin to saying the media and who owns it - values "interesting". Not truth at all, but interesting. In other words, what distracts us. Someone who rights well gets published. It doesn't have to be true, have anything that improves life for anyone, makes anyone think for themself, or give a new viewpoint.

To me what is interesting is that process of getting to think for one's self. To be a person, in the full sense of the world. To know what one's "self" is. To be differentiated (in the psychological sense) and more.